Unwritten Memories: Bored.Broken.Healed

Poor Me. I've been reminiscing a lot of past memories of school this week

. I'm really looking forward for school this time but i know that when school days are in i'll surely look forward for summer. That would always be what students like me think about. I'm sick of trying to finish this cross stitch so i was thinking, that i'll be continuing it by next week and i'll finish it by the end of May.

hmmp... Thursday and Wednesday!? Bad day! **tsk tsk** ... Well t'was Wednesday actually. Deck and I had misunderstandings again and that was about the issue that happened to me last december 2004. It sux. It really was my fault. I'm so dumb!

Deck had an attempt of breaking up with me last Wednesday and guess what!? I didn't sleep the whole day! I just cried the whole day and I was begging him not to leave me

. I even told him that I'll do everything even though he'll not be giving me something in return. Yes! You'll think that i'm insane or maybe i'm really getting on to this too much. I really love him though he thinks he's not cute or he's not handsome. I love him for whatever he have or for whatever he is. Haayzzz... He thinks I'm a liar. "Pls. don't think that way!" . I'm telling the truth but you're pushing me to tell you what you are thinking about what's happening between us. Yes, I'm ma-pride but don't you realize how much you mean to me? that i'm even taking the risk right now so that i can show and tell you how much i love you. I believe i had done something wrong but i had learned my lessons from it and now i'll do everything just to be with you and just to have you. I know you loved me that much before but i just ignored it. I'm really sorry. I'm really sorry for everything. I'm just disappointed because i know you'll not be that DECK i've known since the day we became "US". It's alright as long as i know you still love me (though not much!) and you're still there for me. I don't need something in return but i also don't want this to be the one sided relationship.

Ate FA, Marnil and Kendra thanks for being there though i know i'm so hard headed but you still tried to calm me down and make me realize that both of us were wrong (but i believe it really was my fault!). You know what guyz? You really helped me a lot and that's why i love ya'll! I thank you for the advise that you gave me.

I was surprised last Wednesday Night that Deck called me

and he said he want me back. I thought Ba't ka pa nagsalita ng ganon kanina? T'was harsh actually!. Thank you for calling me. I JUST WANT TO TELL YOU THAT I REALLY LOVE YOU AND YOU'RE MY FIRST, TRUE AND ONLY LOVE!

My life is just so full of drama. Haayzz.. Maybe that's the effect of thinking so much of stuff that are so unusual in the real world. Everthing is a-okay already! I'm just waiting for his call (gusto niya siya lang ang tatawag) 'coz i really miss him and he really miss me daw

.

FD!? i miss her!

She's in Bicol right now and she will be back next week according to Ate FA. Sayang naman! La pa kasi akong load! Di ko siya ma text! Summer nga naman! SUMMER= NO ALLOWANCE = NO MONEY= NO LOAD =STANDBY AT HOME. Gawd! It's so hotta hotta right here now and the heat is burning up my fats!

I just bought my plane ticket for Manila. Matagal pa! sa May 27 pa alis ko! and one day lang ako doon! **haha** I'm just going to have my follow up check-up. I do that always every after 2 months!